There, I wrote something. Are you happy now?
I was talking to my friend Mark about not blogging for so long, and he told me “Just f*cking do it!” So are you happy now, Mark?
But he was right, and actually, this makes me happy. Just being here, typing this now, I feel excited and full of ideas and desire to write and write and write.
So why wasn’t I writing all along?
It’s been months, practically a year, since I wrote on a regular basis. I sometimes missed it, but not much. Same with the photography – I think I posted one picture this year. Almost the same with the podcast – a little spurt and then I was done.
In an interview I did last year, Asia Nelson said she was multi-passionate. I’d never heard that before, but that’s definitely me. I am not particularly great at any one thing, but I am a little good at a few different things.
Which is fine, and even great. But also not great. My passions flow through me in a cyclical pattern, burning bright then burning out then eventually coming back around with that fire again. I put a lot of creative and emotional (and physical) energy into one thing until I am burned out and have nothing left.
But that is just my personality too – I give all of myself over to a project, and at some point you have nothing left in the tank.
I didn’t feel that burning desire to come back to blogging; it was more like a little ember. But just being here is like kindling. We’ll see what develops. 🙂
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What is your passion?
Is it self-sustainable, or does that flame burn out from time to time?
steadily skipping stones 
Yes, I am happy! Good to read your words again. I look forward to reading more, but only if you want to write. But then sometimes it’s good to write even when you don’t want to. Just don’t stress about it. It’s not like you’re going to get fired and lose your house because you don’t have any money because you’re not blogging.
I thought of you too when I wrote this, since we’d just talked about where I disappeared to. 🙂
If this was my job, I’d definitely write a lot more – but I think I’d be broke all the time anyway, haha. I can’t guarantee much writing, but I’m totally feeling the bug again. Amazing that a little bit of writing like this would make me want to do more. I think you’re right, it was good for me to write even if I wasn’t totally feeling like it.
Just write doesn’t have to be often. Or write when you are in the mood. and schedule posts. I do that sometimes.
Boots,
Yes…I’m happy now (aside from my perpetual horror) that you have finally Fu#*%ng written a post. Just don’t start kicking them out so often that I start thinking I’m not writing enough!
RR
Haha, no fear of that! But I do need to get back in the habit. Thanks for the kick. 🙂