Oct 12
I’m super good at tomorrow.
I have tons of motivation for making new beginnings; all kinds of ideas and plans and inspirations.
For tomorrow.
I’m not so good at today.
Today I’m gonna sit here juuust a little bit longer.
Today I’m too tired, too busy, too hungry, too overwhelmed.
Today I don’t have the right shoes on.
Mostly, today I just don’t have the right attitude.
But don’t worry; I’ll adjust my attitude tomorrow.
♠
Jul 21
I once asked a boyfriend, “What are you thinking right this minute?”
We were driving somewhere, I don’t remember where, and my mind was flitting from this topic to that, just all over the place. Nothing important in there at all. And suddenly I wondered what had been in his mind right at that exact moment when I was thinking about whatever it was I was thinking about.
Was it something big? Was it some little nothing? Had he been thinking “it’s almost time to get the oil changed,” or “there’s a bird,” or “what are we going to eat for dinner,” or… It could be anything!
I turned to him with a huge smile and asked, “What are you thinking right this minute?” I was girl-excited; I wanted to know(!).
“Nothing.”
What?
“You must have been thinking something.” I mean, there’s no way his mind was completely blank, right?
And so I clarified my question: “I just want to know what was going through your mind right at that minute. No matter how little it was.”
“Nothing!” He was quite adamant. And annoyed. His mind was, apparently, a complete blank.
I persisted in a persistent manner to inform him that there was no way his mind was a complete blank.
“There’s no way your mind was a complete blank. You had to be thinking something. Even if it was something tiny and inconsequential, like, I don’t know…like…’those trees are really green.’ “
“I wasn’t thinking anything at all.” He could persist too. “I’m not trying to hide anything from you, I swear! I wasn’t thinking anything!”
And so I gave up.
“You don’t have to tell me; I was just being curious.”
And that, ladies and gentlemen, is how to start a fight out of nothing at all.
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Is it really possible for your mind to be completely blank for long stretches like that?
Or is it just a guy thing?
Have you ever started a fight out of thin air?
What are you thinking right this minute?
😉 ♥
Jul 1
I was talking to my friend Mark about not blogging for so long, and he told me “Just f*cking do it!” So are you happy now, Mark?
But he was right, and actually, this makes me happy. Just being here, typing this now, I feel excited and full of ideas and desire to write and write and write.
So why wasn’t I writing all along?
It’s been months, practically a year, since I wrote on a regular basis. I sometimes missed it, but not much. Same with the photography – I think I posted one picture this year. Almost the same with the podcast – a little spurt and then I was done.
In an interview I did last year, Asia Nelson said she was multi-passionate. I’d never heard that before, but that’s definitely me. I am not particularly great at any one thing, but I am a little good at a few different things.
Which is fine, and even great. But also not great. My passions flow through me in a cyclical pattern, burning bright then burning out then eventually coming back around with that fire again. I put a lot of creative and emotional (and physical) energy into one thing until I am burned out and have nothing left.
But that is just my personality too – I give all of myself over to a project, and at some point you have nothing left in the tank.
I didn’t feel that burning desire to come back to blogging; it was more like a little ember. But just being here is like kindling. We’ll see what develops. 🙂
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What is your passion?
Is it self-sustainable, or does that flame burn out from time to time?
Dec 7
I’m teaching myself to knit.
Because you’re never too old to give your mom a lumpy, lopsided, homemade scarf potholder for Christmas.
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Do you give homemade gifts?
Do you like to receive them?
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I'm a writer and photographer, sometime poet and philosopher, who is figuring out who she was meant to be.
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